For the first time in a very very long time, I feel like I’m struggling at the gym. Let me start by saying that I go to the gym 6 days a week. Once a week I have my regular trainer and every other week I have a running trainer. So twice a month I have weeks where I have 4 days of me on my own and 2 days with trainers. The other weeks I work out 5 days on my own and 1 with my trainer. My trainer, who we’ll call Nigel (*not his real name…I’d be made to do a million burpees if I gave his real name) has given me really great and intense workouts to do for upper and lower body. Each of those workouts ends with me doing 45 minutes of cardio and then I do some core and work on my sad ass pushups. I’ve been working with Nigel for over a year now and to his credit, he has never ever let me slack off or gone easy on me. 90% of the time I feel like I didn’t do a great job during my workouts and don’t accept a compliment on them. As for my running trainer, who we’ll call Fritz (*again, not his real name); he’s also one to not let me slack. When we run – or shall I say “slog” which is a slow jog – outside he doesn’t let me quit and keeps pushing me on. So much so that I’m doing my first 5K. So basically, I have two really great trainers in my corner (as well as some others at the gym who keep me moving forward).
But this past couple of weeks, I really feel like I’m not accomplishing anything. I feel like I have to really push myself to make some kind of a dent. I’m not slacking in any way shape or form. I do everything I’m supposed to do. Yes, sometimes I can’t get at a machine or time works against me. This feeling I have is honestly pretty foreign to me. If the “old” me had this feeling, I would have skipped the gym and found a reason to curl up in bed and sleep.
I know it will pass. Everyone has these days like this. I just hate that I’m having them. I have two of my “bucket list” things coming up and I really want to do well.